I had one of those days this week where I felt like all the various workings of the universe came together to make me feel extra special. I just finished recording in LA a week ago, the new cd which will be titled: Ca Sarvetaratra (And Everything Else). As with the previous recording it went so easily, so swimmingly, it just amazed me. My recording partner, Gabriel Mann, ever the adventurer, told me when we started that he watched the time we had set aside to record get smaller and smaller the closer it got to the dates, and that he had no idea how we were going to accomplish an entire album in what amounted to about 16 hours in the studio. And yet he was still willing to do it – that’s the kind of friend I love to have.
So we did it. The recording part is done, and indeed it did only take 16 hours, and it is incredible. So many magical things occurred as part of the process, about which I won’t go into extensive detail, but suffice it to say this album is… shaktified.
I listened to some recordings on the way to LA about how we truly do create the world we live in, how each moment is our own creation, and noting how each of us are demigods of our own existence is worth doing.
I got home and have been playing bits and pieces of the recordings in various classes and the reception has been fantastic. It’s so great to hear how the music affects other people.
I’ve made some new friends recently who are enriching my life so fully – they are of my tribe, the kind of folks who ask difficult and direct questions but with love in their hearts. I’ve reconnected with old friends who remind me of who I am, and of the fullness of one’s expression in this world.
I also got two emails this week from students telling me how grateful they were for my words and instruction in class – so good.
I’m in the process of applying to graduate school and hitting a few snags along the way, but from past experiences I am aware that the application process is a sticky one. I am committing to persevere.
What’s been most interesting about these last few days is noting how my spirits can be so up when one of these wonderful things happen and then swing so significantly to other places, places of fear and insecurity, stagnancy, frustration, when something else happens. I can remember feeling soft and full and even elated, and yet I can’t touch it when I have shifted. I am considering these moments to be opportunities to try to handle things differently than I have in the past. “Maybe this time instead of reacting I’ll try to just breathe. Maybe I’ll write. Maybe I’ll meditate. Maybe I’ll go to yoga.” I don’t want to run away from the feeling, I want it to have its moment. I’m just still learning how.
I haven’t hit on “the thing” yet, and I doubt that there is one thing anyway. But I’d like to hope that noticing and trying different approaches may be part of the solution as it were. It certainly beats doing things the same old way, the one that doesn’t work at all.
What are your mechanisms for dealing with mood shifts? Feel free to share: mantrassage@yahoo.com
